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Thursday, August 12, 2004

Thu, 12 Aug 2004 11:49:23 GMT

Letdown huh?

U know sometimes u just wished to be the one that gets hurt than being the one that hurt the other person....Well, once again I'm found in the position of hurting somebody because of choices I'd made. There is no right or wrong in choices we made daily, only consequences.As for me...big time..and I knew I could never change anything for now...

My words will be few tonite, as I have nothin much to say as I know nothing could change what has taken place. My mom told me before, never to regret in anything that has be done, well..I tried not too..and I knew I would, cause life still will go on..and I knew I will have to move on. I wished things would go back the way they were...wishful thinking, but ...I dunno.

Friends are people that I cared most for, but maybe from today onwards I may have to think twice how I cared about them. Sometimes, it is just..I dunno, different. Each one is unique, and each one have their own way of thinking. Some may say, birds of a feather may flock together, yet, each one is still different.

I dreaded to think what has happened, I wished they would all be resolved. That God would make it well again, but I guess not. My lack of considerations has brought me this..and I hav to own it up..I have to bear this thought..as much as it has hurt a friend, I felt helpless and lost..what is left is just regrets. Something that..so useless..yet that is the only thing that's left.

When one fails oneself, one has only one to takecare of, but when one fails another, one has also another to takecare of. I fear now, in a lot of things. Fear of disappointing friends that are dear to you. I fear one day if I fail one, would one just step out of my life and...that's it. I am not that brave afterall..and careless by all means..and selfish.

Things that I want to do, I do not do, but things that I do not want to do I keep on doing.

Oh when will I stop and learn and think of my past, my mistakes. Its not a time to feel sympathetic and hoping that people will come and give me all the sympathy I need. In the end, I still have to stand with my own two feet and start to crawl or walk again.

I'm sorry, and I do know how one functions sometimes, and carelessly I letdown all that I hold dear. I wish it wasn like that or things somehow will get better..but.. I gues i will never know..and I miss you too. Things will change...things will change..I'm sorry.

We're not forgotten, we're ever in God's sight,

He will come to us, when the time is right,

He will lead us into freedom, He will lead us in the light,

and He will come to us, when the time is right.

Just...

Sunday, July 25, 2004

Sun, 25 Jul 2004 17:27:10 GMT

So, Inclusive Concert, a production of Calvary Youth has officially taken place last night, 24 July, 2004 at the hour of 1830. Man..the crowd this year was...just awesome...not as in the number, but the enthusiasm. We, as the participants of the Concert was deeply overwhelmed by the responses of the crowd.

The concert, was opened by a short clip of a girl being rejected by his boyfriend. Feeling lost and unwanted she thought she could at least seek comfort from her friends, but only to find that no one cared!! The clip was done in quite an abstract form, wherby it allowed people to think and relate on their own. The soundtrack of the clip, Crystal Clear by Jaci Valesque was well chosen to compliment the conclusion of the story, the lines went:

When I'm a sparrow in winter, You are a seed I find
When I'm a heart with a splinter, Your blood keeps me alive
If I could call you a color, You'd be the deepest of blues
If I had my pleasure of anything, You'd be the one that I'd choose

Chorus:
Now it's crystal clear I'm falling for You
Now that I can see the mystery's revealed
Now I'm coming clean
I can feel my fears released
Now it's crystal clear I'm falling for You

I'm soft like clay
Your hands they mold
For You, I would run away
Just to hear You calling out my name

Repeat chorus

Bridge:
I'm broken and empty
Without You, I'm blinded
I need You,
I need You near me, I need You near me

Repeat chorus

Please catch me, I'm falling for You...

So you see, even the choosing of the song played such an importance. Man, when I heard the song, I just knew it was a good one. Good one people.

Ok, lets move on, up next was another opening song entitled, I Will Always Have You written and dueted by our own youths Sheryl and Jeremy, and it was simply captivating! Sheryl probably blew the minds of the crowds when she repeated the lines

...and I will never say no to You Lord, and I will never say no to You Lord...and I WILL NEVER SAY NO TO YOU LORD...and I will NEVER SAY NOooooooooo...

Whoolamak!! She's the DIVA man. While Jeremy the Kwai Lou, probably would hav been releasing his charm...since I'd been hearing ppl asking who's the HOT guy up there?...even my guy frens also think that he looks hot....oh well!! Nolar..just kiddin, he has his own unique features and voice..and all glory to God!! Just as they ended the song, they introduced the second part of the opening with a dance featuring a brief ballet at the beginning and then continued with an attitude-checked hip-hop cum jazzy dance moves. I must say..the guys were just AWESOME!! Man..their moves are simple yet expressive..hey, I din just say that ok...I was there dancing also..I love the beat-box, [or however it is spelled] though..just one word-COOL!!! Special thanks to the choreographers: Allison, Erin, Betty, Kevin and Becky..

FINALLY, the concert BEGANNNNNNNNNnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn........ with the trio-guitarists-knock-out..man, whoever tht came out with the arangement was just awesome!! The man, SPikeEe...*applause* great arrangement!! The opening song, NOW THAT YOU'RE NEAR...Whoo-hoo...sent the people at the altar pumping for more adrenaline..man, it was a wave of people jumping all with their hands raised and neck stretched!! Man I dunno how else to explain,...even the percussionist, Khai-Boy..was like..."Man the people was RAWKING the place dudes!!!"

Serious..we featured a lot of our songs, written and composed by our very own people, and I reali must thank God for all those talents that He has given to Calvary youth! And of course for those who'd availed themselves for the Glory of GOd, in serving Him thru this concert, I salute you!! Bein part of this team, I know we went thru a lot before finalizing all the decisions and the arrangements, evn deciding wat to wear was an issue....but hey, look at us, we all look great that nite. Doesn't that ring a bell? It will eventually be ok, God will take care of us...worry not my dears!!!

OK..wher was I? Oh yea...Now That YOu're Near sent the crowd takin off the ground, then the second hit, DEEP END, by Calvary Youth Music was another SHAKER!! The song was so easy, with little words but strong and impressive ones...in art, the concept is called...Less IS More!! See the link!!?

More of You, Less of me, More of You, Less of me in my life Jesus please,...

and the notable bridge..

I'm ready for this now...I'm ready for this now...I;m ready for this now..

These lines alone already blast the crowd rawkin the sanctuary!! Praise you JESUS, for such an inspired, well written song! Sheryl...keep it up!!

Then when Everything To Me finally filled the speakers, the singers and the choirs were so co-operative...man we did the SWAYING of the hips...it was just hillarious and....all I can say is that...all of us was having fun!!! It was just a very spontaneous thing Jeremy and I thought about..and man, WE did it...it came to pass...whoo-hoo..!!! MuahahahhaHahahhahaaaaa....Then another number written and performed by Jeremy was Praise..this song, also fetched compliments from how many people I dunno..but the last time I checked, someone came up and said, "Man, this song was written by CYM?!?!?!? I thought it was by Hillsong or wat?!?!?".....man, I dunno if any Hillsongs' heard of this, how would they respond!?!?! ...Anyway, wat i wanted to say is that, again, God has blessed the youths of Calvary richly...reali..and you guys that has worked so hard, God is reali blessing people with what you've done...so keep it up, and maintain the standard that you have for God..it will not come back in vain...

WE finally toned it down with Aileen, the one with a soft and sort of child like voice, leadin the next song, All I Want Is You, by Planet Shakers. Dude, it was beautiful...she was a natural...then slowly..the worship songs filled in one by one. I was leadin the following song, Friend of God, another CYM song. Thank you Sheryl for givin me this song to sing...I like it..and yea...I finally got the last line...You came down to rescue me..it wasn that hard anymore..... Our next soloist, Raymond, aka the Vibrato finally took his rightful place, leadin both songs King of Love, Hillsongs and Friend of Sinners, CYM. With God in his heart, and a voice like Groban, he definately has vibrated hearts of many ...well done!! And of course I'm not done yet!! Friend of Sinners, is a special number, wherby it featured the CHOIR..and all the CHOIR people say.......WHOOOOOOOOOOhOOOOOOOOHOHOHHOHooooooooooo At the bridge of the song, we broke into the old hymms, When I Survey. Oh my! Oh my! The parts we broke into was just aesthetically pleasing..not sight, but the voice of the people...special thanks to the Choir directors, who work extra hard to write down the scores and helpin them to remember their parts. Good job Sheryl, Kevin and Aileen!!

Then..this part...aiyo...it's a miscomm la...wat a misapprehension!! D'OH!!! Man...i dunno what i was thinkin...seriously Joel, I reali thought u lipped "Lead Me On" to me ok...I'm serious...and then, when i saw the screen, showed Lead Me On..I thought I got u correctly...Aiyo...Aileen...I'm so sorry...I reali am...aiyo...now i feel like so dumb.....man, I can so imagine what the guys told me, what Sheryl was sayin when we'r up ther performing this beautiful mistake...

Sheryl: Aiyo..this Serene ar....it's Deeply in Love...look here...look here...it's deeply in love!!

...somewher up the second tier of the stage...

Jeremy: Deeply In love...Deeply In Love

Joel: It;s Deeply In Love...Deeply In Love...

Serene and Aileen...blurred at the moment...screen still say Lead Me On....

aiyo....the rest was just history la....Man,....I am laughin now...as i thought bac wat happened that faithful nite!!! URHG!!!!!! Neway...it was okay after that la...I sang the song...aiyo...I feel so bad la...Aileen...I'm sorry...reali I am...I buy u subway cookies ok...???

Then worship ended with LEad Me On..that is also another CYM song, written by Mich, the piano genius. A song that has touched and moved many hearts....check out the lyrics....

You lead me on, event hough I always stumble, You lead me on, when all things around me crumble, You lead me on, You're the strength of my heart, I love You Lord, I need You Lord, I trust You Lord, To lead me on.

What do you say people..short and sincere and all I can say is that...a heartfelt song....bravo Mich..brovo...

Then, we took a break. Ps Richard came up and spoke. He shared of the issues of youths nowadays, takin the scriptures from Romans...the famous line

Romans 7:15 I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do.

And as he elaborated, that sometimes we feel like we're in bondage..like things we know we shouldn't be doin, we;re doin it..and finally gave the call of salvation....many responded...!!! This year, I dunno, tho in numbers, we had some 800 ppl in the house, but the amount of youths attending were a lot more, and that's not it...the thing was that, the response to salvation was more compared to last year's. And that is good!! Praise the LORD!!!! Some 20 over souls were SAVED!! And many others..of which i dun hav the number yet came out for prayers and rededicated their lives back to God. And ppl, youth..common, this is not the end of concert yet....we all need to follow up on these ppl who responded. Concert was just a tool for us to reach out..so now that we've reached out, it's now time for us to flex those muscles around our mouths and shoulders to extend more than warm hand shakes and talk to them with God's love.

Anyway, soon the concert was comin to an end. All singers and choir members were called back onto the rightful positions..and there with us were the people out there on the altar who had rededicated their lives to God or came out to receive Christ as their personal Savior, and of course not forgetting the altar workers cum ushers who had corked their *ahem out the whole evenign just to ensure they get their seats and that the respondents got their reponse slips...hey brothers and sisters...you will be rewarded....keep up the good work!!!

The music hit it, bringin the song Slain written by Joel, another CYM prouduction and led by Emilia. I dunno bout u guys, but when I heard er song, I was impress at how she carry the tune..it's not that all of us are professionals...no, no...we're still far...but it's the attitude and the heart that projected to God that was what captured my heart...Emy dear...you sang well..reali...thumbs UP!!! Then finally, BIG kicked in with the amps screaming its bassy wave, and Jeremy, Julie, and myself took our positions in YEAHING the song in PARTS!!! Can you believe it?!?!?! ...Man I had a good time up there!!! Thanks to the musicians who stayed at the back of the stage silent yet makin beautiful noise which bring up the music to where we went on that faithful night. Michelle, as lead keyboardist [da'Piano Genius], Jen 2nd keyboard, Chew on electric, Siew on acoustic, Baryy on bass, Ken on drums and finally, percussion boy..Khai. Fellow musicians..what can I say...THANK YOU for availing yourself to make music for God and using what God has imparted in your lives to bless His people!!!! Don't ever lose it, continue to climb higher heights which God will bring in people to support and encourage you!!

Neway, back to where I'm about to end..probably another paragraph or two..lalala...it's my blog..so i dun care...I'm just gonna blog in as much details as i can remember...WHOO-HOO!!! So..after Big, One Way was the last number, Joel forwarded as Julie made way and Ken just came in with the steady beat of the drums, building the tempo of the song. And I dun need to explain, the crowd was there jumpin and goin bizarred as we slowly lead them to the peak!! Everyone at the altar was just jumpin and praisin in liberation!! As tho nuthing could stop them from doin it. Then, there came the time when the 3 of us, Joel, Jeremy and myself did the Triple JUMP!! I can't remember whether was it this song, or Now That You're Near..reali..can't remember. It was spontaneous ok..reali!! WE tot Jeremy wanna make his jump, so Joel and I made way..but no, Jeremy signalled let's do it together, so alright...I joined in and there we go....ONE! TWO! THREE! FOUR!!...and JUMP...ONE WAY!! JESUS!! YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE THAT I COULD LIVE FOR!!! WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO--HOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

Obviously, like I was saying, that wasn't the WRAP-UP of the evening!! WE did another song, or two..can't remember also by now..was a little confused by it..but I knew we did Everything To Me, and i think Now That You're Near and finally that was the end...the end of the months of practising, and perfecting your pitch..and u know wat...DAvid told me that we stillsing off-pitch!!! Give it up already....hahahha.....but it was all good...it was all good. Good enough to do what God has intended it to be...the people that came to worship Him with us, the people that responded to the altar, the people that make themselves right before goin up on stage, the bonds that has build themselves among friends, a faith that has deepened due to so many unforeseen circumstances...it's good, it's good!!

Mind me if this blog mite sound glorifyin music more than God, but to me, it has spoken to more people than I ever could, changed the hearts of many who need a specific touch than I could imagine..why?...simply because it didn't come from us...

Music isn't everything...it's just a tool God has provided us, given to each and everyone of us with a specific measure and purpose.

Saturday, July 03, 2004

Sat, 03 Jul 2004 09:22:57 GMT

Whoa..what can I say? It's a saturday noon, and guez wat, I'm home, in Pg. Not that it is odd to be home, but it's kinda odd to be home in Pg at this hour of the day. Not in my usual schedule, Sat..I can't remember the last time i spent my sat at home. Must be like almost 8-9years..hahaha..For those who don't know, I'd unjured myself since last Sun, both my legs were infected with Bilateral Cellulitis, other terms known as, infected by 'Flesh Eating Bacteria'..uhuh, sound scary huh? Well, if u did see my legs, you would be scared too..both my legs were swollen, BIG time, both my ankles were like whoa!! Sigh...it was embarrassing!!

Originally, the plan was that I was to come back for only 1day, to have an ultimate dinner with my family to celebrate both my parens birthdays, and also the dated mothers' and fathers'day..but whadaya know??!! I'v been here for almost a week and the only place tht I had visited more than twice is the doctor's place. Sigh...and shakes my head...dinno whether to laugh or to cry for myself. I was told to rest most f the time, with my legs raised higher than my head..and so i did..n it was tough. For a person like me, it was reali killin me..I can't do this and that...can't evn drive..can't even like..walk down and up the stairs with the help of the railings..sigh... Seriously, after this incident, I must pray hard that God will not let me suffer any diseases tat has to do with my mobility..it's just too harsh a punishment for me!!

Somehow, the one person out of many others that are kinda happy of my state would be my aunt. Knowing the condition of my legs and that the only way to cure my legs is to rest and not to go anywher...my aunt told me this..."wat a good way to ground you..hahahaha" I reali had to admit, if I'd be her, I would be sayin the same thing...Everyday is just to wake up, brush up, hav breakfast, have my medicine, watch tv..then lunch, then more tv, then dinner...sigh...it's reali boring. Must honestl, must thanks those who kept me company thru smses, and calls...I'm so touhed...reali...thanks man. And obviously, my guest that eventuall turned a Nurse when we all found out about my mishaps...Ms Chong....hahahhah...Sheryl...thank you for stayin by...reali appreciated it...reali. Thanks a lot for everything!! I'm so sorry that I din hav the opportunity to bring u around and also to see your uncle...my deepest apology.

Other than that, life has been okay. Just hoping that I will get better fast so that I could go back to KL and then to complete my asignments asap. I have tons of wrk in which i still yet to touch them...evn right now, if it's not the laptop, I wun be able to evn write anything. So, everyone...have a great day. I miss CA and CCSM...sigh...saturday has been so different without it!...

- You reali can complain tat you have no shoes, until you see someone with no feet - think about it, sometimes we just forget

Thursday, June 03, 2004

Thu, 03 Jun 2004 15:31:39 GMT

..hmmm...it's been awhile..since I last pen in...was reali busy. Cudn't believe myself just the past Tues I came home with 12 color marker renderings, and six simplified drawings...think I'll be goin crazy this weekend. But , I'm not here to complain..the main reason why I wanna write today is that..well...it's sorta like a revelation that God has revealed to me the past Sun. Well, I was havin lunch with a fren, Jeanie..can u believe it, the date was set like since last year, and it has only came to pass a few days ago...wat a...nvm....

Neway, we caught up on the time we haven been updating each other..and it was because of that, somehow God led us to talk bout an issue that has been bothering me since like I can't remember when...reali...if I'm not wrong..should be since beginning of this year...so..let me begin..

I am just a girl that one of my friend Raymond has described that I'm actually like a sponge. A sponge that is not so soft, but one will definitely need to make some effort in order to squeeze the sponge. And it's true...I'm like that...So many times I'd asked my friends what they perceived of me? Most would say, very confident, which I am..and strong, reliable, independent and so on and so forth. Well, actually what they said is all true..but deep inside I dun want that...I dun want ppl to think of me as such a person, cuz I know with such character perceived, ppl will assume that I can take a lot of things...like pressure, like ignorance, insensitivity,...

I know myself full well, to be honest, I love the limelight. I realised this when i knew how to make jokes and act, when my bro and I would remember the lines from Jackie Chan's kung-fu movie and we'll both act in front of my grand parents to make them laugh. This part of me also came from the Sanguine inside me, which sometimes I think it is so strong that it is driving me nuts. Like when I don't have the attention I need, I will feel left out, not needed and not belonged...and eventually, I harvested a field of bitterness and I looked very deep inwards to myself...and thereafter, I lost my focus...which at that time I still make myself believed that I'm ok.

Anyway, as the clock ticks, I somehow learnt to overcome the fear of rejection inside me. I learnt to enjoy by bein alone, spending time with myself, doin reflections and to do some thinking. But everytime when i talk to God, I felt the lack of faith that God is listenin to me..it's strange...I know God was ther, and was listening...but I just felt as tho He is so far...or was it only me? I dunno...but thank God for the Holp Spirit, I just knew that God will reveal to me in His own time...and finally...yes!!! He did it!!

One of the final questions that bothered me like crazy before the comin of this revelation is this : Who am I? Am I who I am because of what others had perceived me? Or am I who I am because of who I am? It's just a simple complications I had in my mind about a month ago..reali...I could still remember Sheryl and I was talkin about it...reali...We were both thinkin hard...The reason why I was kinda downcasted was because, I felt like I have no friends in college...like my another fren in coll who shared the same thing as I. I was feelin that no one actually cares...reali...Whether I do my work or if I attend college...no one cares..reali. And I dun feel belonged..and my greatest problem was that..I felt that I dun fit in...I dunno if it is the truth..cuz I'm facin that each day I go college...And I was asking God about it...."God, why??? You placed me there...and not that I'm there...why aren't You doin anything? Why do I hav to go thru this? And u dun evn give me someone whom I can share comfortably with? And You hav to make me feel like an alien and then to undergo the feelin of bein rejected and not wanted?!?!?" I could remember myslef bombarding God will all sorts a questions...quietly..everyday as I prepared myself to go coll, I just dun feel like goin..it was such a drag...and when I see ppl havin fun with their frens and within their grp of frens..I just felt so left out..

And because I dun wanna feel this awful feelin again and I wanna improve myself in college, I started to be nice, and to be like them in order to gain approval..but then soon I tire out...main reason was that I wasn't being myself..and that hurts!! It hurt so much to see myself being alone...but it hurt evn more when I start to behave not like myself and to top it off when I dun evn get approval from them. The approval is not like they verbally voice it out...no..not like that...it's more to like...bein accepted in the group or not...I was reali fed up...not with them...but more to with myself. I felt like a complete idiot and moron!!! And my final decision was that...THAT'S IT!!! I'M NOT GONNA DO ANYTHING!!

But you know what?! God is ever so faithful...just as I thought I was gonna give up...He came...and rescued me from the pit!! The point whereby the revelation was found was when I told Jeanin about the WHO AM I issue....You see, I care too much wat ppl think and what I think of myself...and I totally forgot about God....n yet during that time when I was discussin with Sheryl, a thought came to me...who you are is not determined by the people around you, but the ONE that lives in you...yet, at that time, I couldn't understand the joy of the revelation...I was so blind...I was too inward looking!!!

Talkin to Jeanie was like, a whack at the back of my head and that suddenly...."I can see the light!!" kinda thing...so the conclusion was...it's not a question of Who am I? or What others think of me? But it is more to Who do I wanna become? Simple right? Yet complex when i was unable to comprehend. Well, I must say that this post is kinda personal...so, whoever that reads it, I just hope that...err..u've seen another side of me, a glimmer...i dunno. Mebbe u mite think of me differently now...but, ........... I'm not boasting...I am just writing the truth of myself, sincerely...honestly, transparent. I do believe also, that if u actually get to read this, you're either one of my close frens, or my closest frens....LOL...

Sincerely,

Serene...

- Life is a constant struggle, but God's grace surrounds you, don't feel too small or too little, for all that God ask...is just you -

Friday, May 21, 2004

Fri, 21 May 2004 05:21:35 GMT

It's now 1.55pm.

I looked out the window, the flags on the poles beating smoothly as the wind blew...and it made me wonder, sometimes, life is something like that. U know, the ways of the world, the influences of the people around u, whether it is good or bad, the new angles and horizons that u see as u grow up, beliefs that your friends share with you, values and faiths and habits or even just as simple as kindness..or initiatives and just the way your frens or people out there are....are the potential winds that blow u eachday.

Many of us, are shaped and cultured as we grow up by the people around us, sometimes it is just the TV..haha...whereby cartoons and action heroes are one that we could be identified with..haha...So, believe it or not, that is wat we are today, obviously, as u grow up, you wun just wear your red underwear outside...and you obviously know that u can't fly no matter how much u try...Things change..and sometimes..for better or for worse...only those who stayed long enough will know.

As I give myself a little longer thought, I feel like, lately, I've been like that flag, that has been caught, left and right as the winds blow. And the pole is wat I am actually holding and relying. The winds blew hard sometimes...and I just hope that the colth of the flag will not give way. I just dunno how much faith that I have...For...even if jsut one strand out of the weave just decided to let go, sooner or later..it's gonna tear...and when the wind blows again..I will soon go...Gone with the Wind!

Then, in my mind...I saw some other poles that are with me. I know strong winds have been blowing...reali..some stood strong...they hung onto that pole...the one that we alwais trust that will keep us who we are, stretch us up to our highest height. For without it, we can't even hold ourselves up. I was moved and once again encouraged...yet, some gave way..and decided to just let the wind take them to wherever the wind goes. It is sad obviously, to see them...gone, gone with the wind..and only God knows when will we see them again...if ever.

So..if u understand this little short illustration, I just hope that u will keep hangin onto that pole of yours. Let just think carefully, without the pole, you're just a piece of cloth that will never be anything that you are destined to be..hang on tight. It is when the wind blows that the glory the maker gave you will be proclaimed!!

- Who you are is not determined by the people around you, but the ONE that lives in you -

Tuesday, May 18, 2004

Tue, 18 May 2004 17:13:45 GMT

Well well well...just came back from Singapore yesterday. The trip has been good and wat an expereince. Taking a train is not a bad idea at all...tho it feels a bit militant....but still the bed was comfy enuff to sleep i shud say...and wat i enjoyed most are the comfort of aircon and the company of frens. Actually, to tell ya the truth...tho i'v been with them like for almost a year..and for some...more than a year...I felt distant with them. I dunno...mebbe it's just me...but yea...it seemed to me that i'd a prob with coll...sigh...wonder wat they wud fell if they ever come to this piece.....but if...if anyone of u gets to this page and read this...i just wanna tell u that...i enjoyed every moment i spent with u..reali...

Well...let me begin.we board the train. And...before I forget..Tab..thank you so much for sending me ther...appreciated it !! Muakz....It's my first time taking a train...as in like more than an hour ones....LOL....jakun eh......but yeala...the experience was a good one...my opposite bunk was JuJu...she's a funny gurl la...that nite...we had chats...bout our good and bad points.Dee, Grace, Ju, Tjune Czek, Keith and myself. Well..learnt bout myself...my good and bad points..but....like almost half i know..they dun reali know me..and vice-versa..that was also why i wanted to go to the trip because i wanna take the opportunity to know them.....well..im not sure bout them...but i definately knew them better...but not to the extend of likee super close frens now la...hehehe

Well..the trip actually was challengin to me. Not physically..but reali..emotinally...it was challengin. Mebbe part of it is that..I wud feel left out most of the time. And felt that i was not treated like a fren. I sorta feel like they dun reali bother about me..or evn sometimes...on how i feell..but i know not all the time. And when i have that feelin inside me..i wud tell myself is that because u haven been a fren to them...and u can't blame them for treating u this way....whcih is kinda sad sumtmz.....but..i fought very hard within myslef to be ok..and i think...i did...in the end...I was victorious...i wasn't bogged for that!!

So...the conference...I must com;iment IDN...tho i know..some of my frens din reali enjoy it..sayin that it is boring and so on...but for me it is an experience. Reali...once..one of my lecturer asked us if we have a fovourite designer...i had no one...not becus i have no one..it's because i know no one...but now...i have. And he is Alan Chan. Itell u this guys is a superb graphic artist. He is fromHon Kong..and his work are reali worthy to be praised. His concept are reali good..and i was reali captured by his brillance in creating such touching concepts. His wrks based a lot with lives...warnth and emotions and people. Which i find very maningful and moving.

The second one is a group of three people...they are also from HK...aka Brothersfree. Their production...Borthersworker...fantabulous!! Their creation just show to tell that how detail are these bucnh of people. Asians should be so proud of them...Good job...wat a wonderful work of art. In their presentations....think their presentation is one of the best. If ur there..u will agree with me...and i took pics with them....yay.....Reali honored to witness the presentation...great job..!!!

After that...was more of shoppin...okok..before i go shopping...it's like this..on the sat nite...we came home 12plus..so i wanted to check out watime shud we wake up on sun morning...should we go for breakfast or wat? I ws walkin towards Josh's and Keith's room when i heard someone talkin...audibly from the staircase...So i went closer to check it out. True enuff someone is ther...and i listened closer..it was someone prayin...I wanted to know if he's a Chirstian..so I listened attentively..and guess wat...he is. I pushed the door opened....expected to seee more ppl..but..i only see him...he looked at me and say..."Hie..."

"Hie..."

"Am I too loud?"

"Err....yea..."

"Sorry...i will soften.."

"It's ok....so ur a Christian?"

"Yea..."

"Me too...just impressed...sorry to disturbed u...carry on"

"Bye...."

"Bye.."

So I went and do wat i had to do...and after that...i wnated to get back to my room..and...I just hav this tuggin feelin that i shud jsut go and join him in prayer....and i stood putside the door for almost 5 mins or so....just to tell myself that it is ok..to join someone with prayer...so i gathered up the courage and....."Err...Can i join u?"

"Sure...cmon in...".....I walked in..."Hie...my name is Joshua..."

"Hie...I'm Serene.."

So..after a short introduction...we just broke into prayers and we sang songs of worship...that nite...i was burdened with my coll frens...so i prayed for them. And for him...he prayed for his mission team...so...after prayer...i asked..."So u goin to church tml?"

"Yea...have u been to to City Harvest Church?"

"No, I haven...but i sure heard of it..."

"Well...do u wanna join us?"

And...on Sun morning....there I was...standin in the main auditorium or CHC. I was big and spacious...and looks like HIllsongs...but definately smaller...but with that size..it is so well done. The interior is reali good..and the speakers were all greatly tuned and they had a full band with a choir of close to a 100 singers....wahlauweh!!! I was enjoyin myself...actually I reali thought that i wun be able to go to church at all that Sun..due to my situation. Travelling with frens and also....not knowin the roads in Singapore..but somehow...God wun just let me off. And to top that over...wat the preacher preached that Sun...was wat i needed to know...reali...So..I trully believed that God was reali watchin me...He knew i needed to hear from Him...and yes...

I was with Joshua and his team members...got to know a few of them...like...Lindsay, Keira, Jessica, Paul, Nathan, Jimmy, Neisha...and a few more...can't remember their names though..but their faces...for sure... I made frens with Lindsay and Joshua...knew them more...and Lindsay bought me lunch...how sweet...infact..she bought lunch for all of them too...Anyway..in the end...I had to run aften lunch...to meet up with my frens in Bugis. And it was then when the shoppin comes in!! Oh...how i wished i had more time and cash!! It was great shoppin ther...u can find stuffs that u can't find in KL and also...the environment is just different.

I went to this shop, and i bought myslef a ring..and that is the proudest stuff i bought myself in Singapore...because i like it so much!! Thanks Keith for waiting for me...hehehe ...and we had Mos Burger. Oh...how I missed it now. We used to have it in KLCC, but it is clossed down now...why la??? I t was good...guess the place in KLCC is just too small......sigh....so wanted to go back ther to shop.

Neway, in the end...the day has turned to nite...which also means it was time to go off. Once again, we board the train, and this time..was much worse in the sense...cuz we brought back so much stuff...aiyo...plastics filled with books and the cube box...aiyo...jacket on the other hand!! Man...it's tiring...but we all made it!! In the train, what is good is, the fired mee and mee hoon. Please dun order the fried rice...it's tasteless...sumor no xi yao!!! Aiyo...u knowla..me can't survie without xi yao...hahahha ...

Ok...now wat has changed and taken place in the last 4 days...?? I got to know Tjune Czek better..probly because we're both from Penang...and we both like Alan Chan...ahahhaa...Tjune Czek if u read this..I seriously wanna thank you for just givin me that opportunity to know u and share with u. Thank you. And also Juju...cus we both stayed together..and i also wanna thank her...because of her..i can know speak more mandaring...which is good...ahahha....and also gotta spend some quality time with her...yups!!! For Keith also...wanna thank you also. Again for waitin for me and also to be the one to help me carry stuff and also for watchin out for me...whenever ur ther...thank you. That was touching...tho it might not mean a thing to u...but...thank you......for Samantha...thank you for havin me in ur house after we'd returned home. Evn tho it was such a short time...but i trust and believed that the door between us has slightly opened......yea??? For Josh...u pervert king.....aiyo!! If not for this trip think i wun get to know u up to this far. Tho ..i still dun reali know u...but i too wanna thank you...for just alwais being ther to watch out for everyone...makin sure that ppl gets up for breakfast and also...makin sure that all ppl had arrived. It is a good quality that u have there....yea...so keep that up...dun loose it. And seriously,...i dun think anyone of u wud read this...so......wateva la...hehehe...just write them dwon..so i will remember it ma...hahah...

Neway...it's reali gettin late..and the weather here is reali hot...Lord, Lord...please send some rain...here in KL...my aunt's place dun have aircon..so i depend on the weather u send.....heheheh

Tuesday, May 11, 2004

Tue, 11 May 2004 16:16:36 GMT

Hey guys....ahem! Ahem!! ...For all those who dunno..I'm goin to Singapore tml nite for IDN Conference, IDN stands for International Designers' Network....and a few of my classmates and myself are goin to KL Sentral to board on a train. Well, this trip willtake around 5 days...woohoo...feels like holiday again......make sure dun come back and work like a dog can adee...LOL...

Neway..this is only a short one...since I haven been writing for quite sometime...tho i now..not many view this page..but i do appreciate those who had spent time in this page readin my blog. I thank you...reali. Actually it's just a journal that i wud keep...since it's faster than writin them down..and easier to read...i gues i wil be using this page for a long time.

Neway, today was...hmm...hard to explain...went to Sheryl's hse this morning..and...we ended the mtg talkin bout stories of our bros....strange..and i just also realised that we all have older bros...( Julie, Sheryl, Aileen and myself ) ...hmmm..and trust me...if ur a guy, u shud thank God that ur not one of our bros....cus...if u are..u definately dun wanna be present this morning when we had our private discussions....LOL.....

Neway..kinda tired..cus last nite was freakin hot and i din get much sleep...must be the 2 Iced Ying Yong I had the day before...aiyo...so..yup...see u guys in a bit....

Dun u ever lower down ur standard just because of some instant gratifications and suffer loss for eternity.

Friday, May 07, 2004

Fri, 07 May 2004 06:34:14 GMT

Hie peeps..., sorry for late updates, wanna update this like 3 days ago, but was just busy. Anyway for those who dunno, i just turned 22 on the 4th, man...i'm getting old.....Neway, let's start with the eve of my bday.

May 3, '04.

I was working again, in Wow Wow Cafe, this time 6.30pm shift..so went ther on time, and began to do opening for the cafe. Nuthin much at the beginning, obviously, cuz ppl only start pouring like 9plus. So it was easy job la. Ph met up with Chine too, for the pass few days workin haven been seein him, according to Joce, he took leave and went out to hav some fun to PD and ...watever ...Caught up a lil bit wiht him and finally, ppl has start to pour in..I was actually wondering if Simon they all are comin, as I told him to call a few more ppl to come visit me ther...and it was like 10pm already...so.....see la...

Then...I saw him. and Ying Shing ans Shomz!! I was delighted, I went straight to them and gave them a hug. It was long since I last met all of them..cuz holiday ma...I was pleased to see all of them. I ushered them to their seats and Simon told me that more are to come..so i was like, how many more..I was thinkin like mebbe Dee, Dave, Sam, Grace and that's it....manatau, Simon told me lot more to come...possible they need 3 tables..i was like SURE...no problemo!!! I asked them to sit down first, took their orders and got more busy, as the nite is just comin thru...more nad more ppl were comin.

Later part, I saw like....wahlau...some 12-13 ppl were ther, let's see if i could remember all their names...Simon, Shomz, Ying Shing, Dee, Grace, Sam, Dave, Ashley, Josh, Juju, Jun, Loong, Chris, and errmmm....can't remember liao..mebbe..or i dunno..so i f i forget, sorry ar..but to those that came, i was reali happy lo. Shomz dedicated a bday song to me, and the singer and guitarist of the nite were Chien Foong and Ah Worm, aiyo..dunno how to write la, just know tht it is pronounce this way la...Worm used to be from The One also..what a small world... Neway, when the clock struck 12midnite, Worm sang the song la..I was overwhelmed la..mebbe because first time passing thru my bday, half wrkin and half celebrated with frens qua...hehee it is indeed memerable..dun think I'll ever forget one of these memories la.

Later also..round 2am, my frens was pestering me to sing...seriously i dun wan la..cuz the whole day, haven been drinkin water and all so i told Josh that if he sings, i will sing. Well he did la...he sang 2 songs, one is Ai Hen Chien Dan, and Ta Yue Zhai Tong Chi...i think...oh migoodness...he has a good voice la..not that i haven heard him sing b4...but..gurls..go listen to him sing...in Canto.."lam sei lei ar...." ..was reali wondering, with a voice like that, why la in TOA?!?!?! ..eheheh....nola...

Then..soon after that they left, well, hugged them...and continued working la..till like 4plus then onlywe closed shop!! Aiya....all because of the manager la...Guo Hau la....came in like almost 3, brought another 3 frens along and wanted to drink..sigh..watodo....boss ma...let him drink la..so all the staff that still stayed behind chat la...that would be myself, Chine, Woei, Ma Ching He, and....hmmm..oh..one of the faithful customer, Chee Hong...wahliew..that fella was tellin us his life story of how he got this wound and that wound...terror la...!!! I was like....OUCH!!!!

Then finally closed shop!! Yay..then went to Safiz, Hartamas..neat Souled Out. Had what do u call dat?? Supper or Super early Breakfast....watever..had fried mee hoon..okla..then went back home round 5am...aiyo...I almost dieded la!! ..Joce la...slept before she bathe..and b4 givin me the towel..so in the end I slept without bathing....eeewwwwww!!!! I know, I know!! Bu t i kesian that gurl also la...she tired ma..so..sigh...we both slept till like 11:30am...woke up bathe, then drop her in MidValley then i went home.

Now,

May 4th, '04.

Upon walkin back up to my apartment, I saw Aunt DP's door ajar..peep inside, saw my aunt!!! She's early....I thought she wud be back later....so I just walked passed them and entered my appartment..I dinno realised anythin till...I saw a card, with orange ribbon around it, and it was on a chair. The chair was obviously pulled out. So i was like.."Yay...thanks aunt, u did this for me?" Thank you...and she went, "No..I din do dat"

I was..."yea rite" ...

"No...it wasn't me..."

"Then...aiya..dunl ie la......."....then i saw my camera on the dining table next to the chair..."Oh, u took my camera to Awana too?"

"No, this is your camera meh?"

"..... !!!"...I turned around and noticed that my room door was closed..I din shut the door before i went out yesterday...I walked towards it, and opened it slowly...and !!! I saw...BALLOONS!!!!!!! On the floor and!!! !!! PRESENTS!!!!!!!!! On my bed!!!! !!!! They REMEMBERED!!!!!!! THEY REMEMBERED MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!

I hurried back to the camera and by then I already knew why the camera was out ther!! SIlly me that I was so slow!! ..sorry.. I played the button and true enuff, as i screened thru all the pics taken, it was showing me the process of makin this SURPRISE!!! ...So, it was...Tab, Sheryl, Mich, Braine, Brian and Joel....sniff sniff....."GUYS. GUYS...THANK YOU SO MUCH....REALI....REALI....APPRECIATED IT LIKE TONS AND TONS!!! " I quickly ran thru the pics, showed some of them to my aunt especially the one when Joel and Sheryl were at the fridge...aiyo...funny la...!!!

Slowly..I went thru all the cards and notes and gifts...i was just so blessed ...I mean...I was thinkin of the past few days about wat went thru. Mich wasn't feelin good, Sheryl also la...at home..and the rest of the people...so...I was like......there goes my day...everyone is just so stressed..so....wateva la...I wil be ok...and the phrase from Sheryl!! "I AM RESILLIENT!!!" came to me like an inspiring...err...errr...wateva... So for days I'd been preparing myself to be okla...hehehe...but no...!!! THEY REMEMBERED!!!!!!!! WEEEEEEEEEEE ....thank you so so so so so so so MUCH!!!!!

Then they came over to take me out for Kai Fun lunch..man, it was reali good...Saw Jeremy there was kinda surprise too...heheh...dinno he's comin......then after that ...Tab says wanna go to this place wherby the chocolate cake is super-duper-nice!! SO we went to One U later...then, we found out wher is the place, lies our ultimate chocolate cake...it's actually in a BOUTIQUE!!! MS READ, the one in the new wing, nearby to MPH Bookstore, the lower level. You'll need to walk thru the boutique and then, VOILA...the place is inside. And to top that over, it's place is created and design with such ambiece ..relax tone. It has a long pearly white sofas, with green and blue shades of cushions, all lined up to be taken and squeezed by all potential customers, how inviting. The interior is also decorated with hangin lamps that took the form a birdcage..and the whole setting is such a warm and cool feelin...reali..reali...relaxing.

Oh..let me visualize you with the exterior. U can also choose to seat outside. at the porch. It's like a big and spaacious balcony whereby, more cushions are ther and also a humongous sofa wher it took shape of a big cuboid. It's like a bed without a headrest and u can lie down ther and enjoy ur cup of lemon tea and readin your magazines...wat a brilliant concept...nice work Ms Read.!!!! And it is open air, suitable to go ther durin the late evening, when the sun has set and the wind blows in...

Finally, the 3rd highlight of the day, I went to chilis with another 6 frens from college, Dee, Grace, josh, Juju. Simon and Loong. Seriously i was just too full from Tea Time i just ordered Chicken Ceaser Salad....that was already filling for the nite. We were there till like around 11plus, and we decided to make a move, cus it was already our last nite of our holidays...and coll was starting the day after. All in all....I had real great fun and this birthday, by far...it is the BEST BIRTHDAY....I ever had!!! And sincerely i reali wanna thank you guys for makin it happened!!! .....thank you all so much!!!

I know it is a long one..but i just wanna remember it as much as possible!!! Thank yo all once more!!! God bless!!

Sunday, May 02, 2004

Sun, 02 May 2004 16:21:00 GMT

Felt a bit funny today...actually...probably the 2 hors sleep in my godsis' hse on Sat early morn...5am-7am. Sumor the nite was tiring..was waitressing in Wow Wow, Plaza Damas...till 3:30am..it was kinda fun wrking there la...was just helpin her, cuz she was short of hands. Furthermore, it was public holiday and a weekend...it's a killer-nite...sure a lot of ppl one..and it was...the whole lot of us, wrkin our butt outs...LOL

The funnier or should i say crazier thing was...I woke up at 7am for tim sum!!! In Sungai Buloh!!! Man...i stayed over in my godsis' place in Bdr Sri Damanasara..and i went all the way back to Damansara Heights..wahlau..and all the way back again...it was..AIYOH!!!! BUt still...upo arriving the Tim Sum place....man it was worth the while...after all...my frens had it there...all because of the three of us...Mabel, Marilyn and myself....so...yea..wanna thank you a lot, lot, lot, lot......muaks....hehehethe timsum there was just fantastic..thank you for treating the 3 of us...it was reali a pleasant bfast, i haven be havin for a long, long time..hehehe......yummmmmmm......

So after that..went to Midvalley with Braine, Marilyn and Tab...Tab bought a pai of heels from Vincci, a chun-one too...hehehe..so guys, be on the lookout..."Mustang Tabby, she must have slow...the Mustang down....woohoo..."heheh..it was a good but la Tab..heheh..Then, we off to San Fransisco Coffee...cus Marilyn wanted cappucino, I needed my boost of caffeine and Braine needed hot drinks..and Tab terpaksa to follow..hehehe...So, we just sat there and chatted la...everything in the sky, and the earth and all la..till two of my Penang frens called and told me they're in midvalley too...so met up with them..chatted only a bit..cus no time..need to go church liao....so we bidded out goodbyes..

In church however..they're showin the Gospel of JOhn..part II, tho i missed the Part I, I still find it reali good...I mean, I was more touched then watchin the Passion of the Christ. Tho it may be more gawry, more blood and all...but like wat Ollie testified on that Sat itself...sorry Gibby, I couldn't stop cryin towards the end of the show...especially when Jesus kept on asking Peter " Do you love me?"...I dunno bout the rest la...I was reali touched, mebbe not touched....but...I just simply felt the relation to that part...as tho Jesus was asking me the questions 3 times...and i think...I mite be like Peter too...seriously, tho in the dark, i was tryin very hard to hold back my tears..so that no one can see my teary eyes...but i can't...and I did believed that, that afternoon alone, God has touched many souls and lives of the young people...

After that..had Wildfire mtg, then dinner with Mich, Ray, Milia, Julie and Mabel in Hartamas Square. I had sup cendawan and nasi kerabu...which tasted just like any normal fried rice..so yea la...after finishing my dinner...seriously, my stomach was....aiyo..so peppery...think it must be the sup la...the pepper was so strong and a lot!!! ...crazy la!!

Because I was so full....i thought of walkin a bit, so i went back to my wrk place, to see my godsis. Another reason i wanna go ther was because she told me, another 2 of our Penang frenz were gonna come down. Manatau, when i reached ther, she told me that they're comin down this Mon.....so in the end i just stayed ther till 11.30pm...was wrking also la...but not paid one la...was takin care of traffic...meanin i just take care of the flow of the food and drinks and make sure that the barista and the kitchen fellas wun forget and miss the order...hehehe...kinda njoyed it la...hehehhe....after that...I F1 home la...

And it was already Sunday morning....Guez i was reali TIRED!!! ...I woke up late...and i was late for worship...aiyo...tho i slept like 1am...i tot ok wat....but sigh...i woke up, silenced both the alarm and handphone...sigh...WRONG move!! ..silly me!!

Neway, went to church, sat behind..sermon was good, about choices, encouragin people and all..well, I was encouraged..but was so hungry in the mid of service la...but just tolerated la till Sheryl's hse...oh man!!! Tab!!! The pizza was superb!! Wat is it called again..tho i was so stuffed after that, but iw as good. Only 3 pieces and i was done with..the pepperoni cheese pizza doubled with melted mozarella cheese...man it was soso GOOD!!! Peeps out there....wat u waitin for ..go try some..pizzas from Domino's..and please...they paid me none to advertise here alrite..I just tot it is nice and if u need a suggestion of wher to eat lunch, u mite wanna try that!!

Had a great time in Sheryl's place la..played Need For Speed...wahlau... Marilyn is good man. Cmon , guys out there..try to beat this biker-chun-chic...she is so so awesome in racing.....thumbs yup for you Mary...heheheh...the origin of her name in hebrews...hehehe...

After that, at nite, went to Kepong to have dinner with my aunt and her frens..Crabby Dinner..man, that was another bomb. It was nice la...like the cheezie milk crab, the gravy was fantabulous and the deep-fried crab was not too bad also..all in all, the whole sunday was just a day of celebration of feast, feast and more feas. Yea...thank God for FOOD!!! hahahahahahaha....

Love you guys much..the bible study group...thank you for making it happened...I'm sure Marilyn and I had njoyed ourselves very much...adios.

- there is no RIGHT or WRONG in choices we made each day, only CONSEQUENCES -

Wednesday, April 28, 2004

Wed, 28 Apr 2004 17:43:34 GMT

Oh my goodness..had not Sheryl and another fren, WK msged me to ask me to update me blog..I almost forgot what website i was bloggin...terrible me!! And what..last blog was March 25??? This is serious!!! For more than a month i din blog?? Wahliew..think I must be reali crawzy_buzzzy!!

Anyway, actually I just came back from Pg for a wk holiday..man this must be by far the best trip ever. Dunno why I say that...probably I get to do the things which I alwais wanna do but just dun have the chance and time...so finally..yea...

So let me fill you some details eh..I mean whoever that reads my blog la..

It was like this, I went back to Pg by bus, Konsortium..aiyo..tell you..i almost dieded in the bus. It was so stuffy..I dunno why..my fren could sleep..my God Sis la actually...but i was so dizzy and suffocated by the lack of oxygen! And to top it off..someone farted I think..oh migoodness...it was reali terrible..I just cudn't wait to get out from the bus!! Anyway..the incident with the lack of air bus was a day-mare..so that's it la..dun wanna talk bout that.

Upon touched down..I could hear the sound of busy buses making their routines to the bus terminals at Komtar, and gues wat..the polluted air as well la. My dear old school mate is suppose to come pick me up, Patsy. Anyway..she came and we had Sushi King...so yup..somehow..I cudn eat much probably was too hungry. Din hav any food for the past 17hours..so my stomach was like not in her condition to grind some japanese rice... After lunch..we headed home la..I just cudn't resist seeing my bed in Pg..I missed it so so much...my lovely, comfy bed..which served its purpose, faithfully for like around 10 years liao...and is still faithful...wahlau weh...must give him a badge la..hehehehehe......man I'm crazy!!

Then...went pasar malam...the highlight was, I saw a kitten on my way home. I was with 2 other friends. We're walkin towards my car..when this kitten..seemed drunk la..obviously i dun think it's caused by beer or any liquor, but..this lil fella...dunno how to walk la..sat in the middle of the road..then, a small truck came by..wanna drive thru, this fella just sit ther like nobody's biz..at last no choice la..its so cute sumor..so i told my fren to get a plastic bag and make it sit in it while i drive. So, I took the kitten with me, and we went to Subaidah makan la..I din eat la..but the little fella later felt asleep on my lap..so I let it be la. Then finally, it stirred, I ordered a glass of hot milk and wanted to feed it, thru a plate..but i forgot to cool the milk first. The poor kitten licked the first time and pulled itself backwards...think it has burnt its tongue..stupid me...sigh.....neway, i took a few pics of it too..it is just so adorable la..however,...in the end, I had to put it back to the pasar malam...cuz my dad dun reali like cats..so no point to bring it home...so yea la...sigh...

Neway..the following days were just gettin better...I was so amazed at myself. I'm currently stayin in KL...suppose to be the best shoppin spot..and i reali wonder why i dun shop in L: and i wil go back to PG and shop...funny?!...probly i was like a crazy person la...earlier on, just work, work and work!! Gila man...but like my fren wud alwais tell me..."STEADY!" hahaha....I will la...steady!! Did quuite a number of shoppin this time...bought like ..hmmm...let me see...1 pants, 1 skirt, 6 tops, 2 pairs of shoes, and 2 bags i think...not to mention makan also la...so ..gues i spent a BOMB!!!! Thank God...got sponsor....my dad...ehehehhe...

Neway..the main reason why this is so far the best trip is because, i managed to meet up and reali spent quality time with my ex-classmates...it was reali amazing how we talked and just njoy doin things together...it was just too great. It first start with this stupid idea from Patsy la. She told me to organize a reunion, but dun tell anyone that she's back to Pg...I was like ok...but at that time, it was also my peak period. Easter and coll finals together..I was so out of breath. So things was like so hap-hazard, I sent out mails late, to top it off, i lost all contacts...cuz i lost me hp...aiyo...I was getting madder each day..but to my surprise, I managed to pull it off.

Personal invitation sort of was issued out on the day I step onto Penang ground...Tuesday..and the reunion is Thurs nite...not too bad eh...we went to Berjaya Hotel and had buffet...not so nice la..the best, i think is...Haagen Dazs ice-cream..other than that....hmmm...the potato salad was good...sausages okla...the rest...reali soso nia..that nite was crazy too. Somehow ther must be an invisible root growin from our bottoms..we just dunno how to get up and get goin..till someone has to shoo u sout..either dierctly or indirectly. First was Berjaya Hotel..then it was Starbucks. The waiter practically have to like..."err...we'r closing...." LOL but it was fun. The entire place was just the noise we make...crackin jokes and all...oiyo..one of my girl friends..think I need to salute her la, Moi Yin..seh can remember the things that none of us cud remember...her memory is just so good...wonder did she wrote them down and alwais refer to it before mtg us....hahahah....nola..JK.

And the following days are just more shoppin and oh yea..we went for movies too...please..dun watch Decoys...suck big time ok. Think u wud rather spent ur movie ticket's money for a grande of frappucino in Starbucks...evn if u mite hate coffee...(TAb )..haha...the other movie was not bad..aiyak...forgot the name liao...err..think gotta do with Killin...something i forgot la...Angelina Jolie and Ethan Hawke..not bad..better than Decoys...but obviously not a blockbuster la..so mite wanna give it a try.

Hmm...wat else ar...oh...I was searchin high and low for this special pancake..hmmm...Sheryl..must pay attention lo...u know Apam rite, in KL...it's pancake ok..well, back in Pg, u can have pancake with ham and egg and cheese and tuna and peanut butter and chicken and i dunno wat else la...are u droolin...finally, a fren,Ken brought me ther, but too bad i was like so full adee...so therfore..i can't reali eat much la...so yea..I had half and he finished the other half la...hehehehe......thanks man!He can reali eat a lot...MPPP..hahhahaa...Braine, Brian....buck up yea...DBKL!! heheheh

Well...managed also to meet up with another fren, in Winter Warmers, also another nice place to catch up good times and they served great food. I had Potato and Ham and Cheese Bake...it was fantabulous. For drinks, I ordered Peach fruit tea...wat a perfect combination. The cheese bake was superb la i tell you, honestly...my fren works ther, he told me they'r gonna open a branch in Ikano Power centre...so Tab, Mich and Sheryl...cmon check this out with me ok. Sure u will like it...as long as u like cheese...guaranteed...hehehe.....no kiddin..

Wahlau...either i dun write...and if i write...I'm pretty long winded.....hahah...gues those who knows me, knows this part of me too yea...i dun wanna miss any details ma..wan u guys who read to paint a nice pic from my writings, eh..hehehe ..think i wl stop here and be more consistent next time..hehehehe....miss bloggin ..and thank u all, especially those that visit this page...muakz...

PS,

my faithful readers...ahem ahem..who has been following the story of Faith and also bout the Journey to Pg when my grandma passed away...I apologise for not finishin them up earlier...but i will try to complete them asap....heheh,..sorry sorry

Though there's no right or wrong in a choice we made each day, it has consequences...therefore, choose wisely.